liberate my madness

I was so ready for liberty..i kept talking about that…when I go to the market..to the shopping complex..passing exclusive restaurants, passing children’s outfit boutique…in my kitchen…while hanging laundry…I even thought about it while doing my business in the toilet.

LIBERTY

Well to me it brings various meaning…from being financially free to a time for myself being alone away from Ayman’s scream and Tara’s tearful cries…also from my nagging husband(about his car of course)…

Sad but true…liberty is TOO expensive for me…now it sounds like liberty is equals to my personal happiness. I understand that you CAN ‘buy’ happiness, you just have to pay for it with a particular currency called Quality time (I use to regard it simply as time…but as I observe how things turn around these days…including my experience seeing my husband’s ‘pondering’ expression while im talking to him and turns out that he Does Not remember a single word I said!..Interesting!and that what motivates me to improvise the term as ‘Quality’ Time)

I’ve been screaming these sentiments in my head for the past one week…you may relate that to my previous blog about…how hard life is. Thank God I am not suicidal haha..i doubt I’d be able to success doing it somehow…I have too much emotion and worries till im afraid to die…haha!who will fix my broken kitchen floor…who will feed my kids?...i  just have a lot to worry about and death is not a solution!

I probably choked on the pills and regret trying to swallow it anyway..or how about jumping off a building…well I probably get sued by police and fire department for bringing up a ruckus for them to blow the siren and fix me…and I probably stumble over the floor and lose my strength to jump off the 5^th floor….

Or if i even try to stop breathing, bite my tongue or whatever…my kids probably screaming at the top of their lung to call out on me till I can’t stand the volume and get up and fix their dinner….why of course while nagging…and smashing things around…

I guess if I try to kill myself my husband probably asks…”what’s wrong with you?”…well my husband…some days he live with me with his mind and conscience but most of the time..his body is around but his mind is swimming up there in cloud 9…he probably didn’t notice how depress I was…at times.

So how do I fix myself in relate to my Liberty…I mean why do I need Liberty anyway?...well the fact that it makes us feels good enjoying the reaps of your own labor and brings out the very  true meaning of freedom. Somehow, this issue may not relate to this stage of life that im currently in.

My kids are still in growing stage when tantrum is such a normal thing and my career is still considered to be in the medium stage.

Liberty is madness during difficult times but with faith and belief in the old say “delayed gratification” one will not lose their head over a temporary affliction.

Perhaps coveting for a liberty is not the right action at the moment…right now the kind of help I need is simply a diversion from this idea….oh well then, I may need to switch to that NEW pocket taco combo from KFC…or maybe over the newest scarf trend in town!

It looks like…L.i.b.e.r.t.y has to wait ….T_T

Life is Hard...sometimes you just can't handle them

you may be thinking, ok what have i done to deserve these kind of punishment, challenge, disaster, adversity well you name it and the list goes infinite.

But little that we realized that life is always a gift without a wrap and a ribbon, there is always something for everyone and the difficulties that you are facing now is in time turn out to be the best thing that ever happen to you because it lead you to something even better. Just like the old saying " when another door closed , another door opens" or how about this one " adversity is a blessing in disguise"

You may have read in entertainment articles, biographies about famous celebrities or mentors that almost give when actually they were so close to their life achievement, you may also have read about other genius and intellects that lose it and eventually commit suicide or died because of disease before they receive their recognition and soon after their death, public will start to noticed about their talents.

those who have hold on through their darkest adversity and live to tell are people such as Eminem the rapper, Shaun Stenning millionaire in early 20's and a lot more.

And so folks...just maybe that the most terrible time of your life might be an entrance to your biggest opportunity in life. To look again of what you really want in life. To reflect your being and your real desire. To find who you really are and to discover where your true talent is.

Life may be hard but blessed with choices, justice and faith :)
I believe that after reading these articles you will start to realize that life isn't as bad as you think. It is more like a jungle or forest that hidden with berries, edible animals, beautiful waterfall and even a place of remedies for wounds that you get from cutting through spiky plants, falling over a hill or even bitten by wild animals.

Its all there...in Life.
So live, live and discover that all the BEST is there for you.
Even at times you fall and hit your head, lose your conscience and wits but, in life you also find cure for your bruises and exotic cascade to sooth your wounded soul and shape it back in place.

Yea...sometimes you can't handle Life....but remember this folks...Life Can Handle You... if You Don't...oh they handle you so well...its either it throws you into pit or put you on top of the world, its your call...You Lead.

Let me close the article with this quote :

If you're in a bad situation, don't worry it'll change. If you're in a good situation, don't worry it'll change. ~John A. Simone, Sr.

Cheers All!

sometimes you just can't handle life, BUT! most of the time...You Can!!

2010 onwards...

didn't i told you about the broadband..the wishes i got this year, well so far three of them is on the way, one has been canceled and so i pretty much cover it all.
things probably don't always happen the way you want it but, you can always count on this saying 'Ask. and you shall be given"
who cares if it does'n t happen at the exact expected time. You'll get there somehow, and who cares if its perfect...well no one but you.
So all i gotta say is that..you cannot impress anybody dude...but yourself.
No one's gonna please you.
No one's gonna make it perfect for you, but you.

so when i ask for black and i get brown. Im just gonna have to take it. Its life. I doesn't always happen the way you want it.
surely something will fall from the sky or emerge from the ground and stand in your way. While your victory is on the other side...you may start be thinking..."you know the grass is greener on the other side see..."
but
folks do not fail to see one miracle out of such adversity that is ; every disadvantages is a blessing in disguise

well, maybe that Digi broadband is not as good as Celcom and its yellow instead of blue...but heck! its working and not just its better than nothing.
It is making the BEST out of everything!

Well...i have 3 projects on the way and 1 has been canceled, But it has been replaced by another thing. Its Larger, its Bigger, Its Harder, Its Better.
not a well-paid mundane job as i wished before but this time its going to be something that i would consider a life achievement. It will reward my loved ones, it will make my whining cease and surely it will make me a complete person.

Im gonna throw myself into a rabbit hole and comes out with a 'risk-full' ambition and i will do all the crazy ideas, do all the meticulous effort and...be happy doing it!

I picture myself in my pyjama and glasses and hot nescafe(or cold...)with 1 big bottle of water and in my air-condition room. Every once a week i will go down to my happy lane at HSBC normal route and cash in my money. Then, im gonna buy that Acer dekstop that my current company just bought and exactly the same inventories...the monitor,that fancy keyboard with volume control, then that flat and 'wide-angle' monitor and that tiny CPU. Exactly the same.
Then, i will travel on annual basis to Danum Valley occasionally to Kinabalu Park, Poring and Tambunan and Kiulu and all those places where trees grow green and birds whistle a song.
Then, i will be too busy even to shop. I will have maid coming 3 times a week to clean my house and my in law may visit my kids on day trip.
We will reward ourselves with good restaurant and fancy hobbies, i will become an amateur photographer and i will have more money to buy lenses!.
Of course i will be my complete character. I have time, space and liberty for 5 times a day routine. I can go to  Quran classes i even have time to join the lecture at MUIS every once a week.
Most importantly sooner or later i will move into a new house with a garden. I will have a cabin at Kundasang and grow my own broccoli.

Its because, there is no age limit for the path that i have choose. There is no barrier of senility and absolutely im going to have enough money for retirement.
I will be old and small...but my oh my...am i Happy!

So...wish me well and trust in me.
Everything is possible, with the right mind, the right tool and the right attitude!

to love is to give...to give is to earn

"why i can't give..."

Stingy people will never be rich. Due to their poor mentality state of mind that they are not sharing since it is not even enough for their ownself. Forever they are bound to the mindset of 'not enough' and it will held them down from going to extra length to find more resources.

Stingy people comes from different angle ; physically rich and even poor .

Generous people who loves to give will be rich. Literally through physical and mental. To give more they need more so they will always look for more resources to be able to sustain their loved ones.

Rich people has a lot of people to love. Poor people has few people that they love very much within their arms reach and not universal.

Poor people life are lonely and little and therefore poor people is not genuinely happy people.

So money CAN give you happiness. Contrary to the popular belief that money is the root of all Evil.

Money offers solution, network and teamwork and even cherish and love. Perhaps too much money is disastrous but, with the right principle and excellent value you can never go wrong.

best story i had this week...

I was ready to get angry, when my husband starts with story about a normal guy molested a retarded girl.

It was a great real story and it starts bleak, yet my husband continues on. It happened to his friend’s neighborhood and I personally know this friend myself. He was courageous, short-tempered and amorous…literally speaking. His wife is a full time house wife and close to their neighborhood members. On this particular day she and her other neighbors noticed the girl went into this evil guy apartment. They discussed and decided to investigate. When they check on him at his doorway and ask him, he disregard it and they could not locate the girl’s sandal. But!. They insisted. Together with other neighbors they all went into the apartment and found the girl inside the room with her outfit in a mess. They started to questioned him after several refusal he admitted to molested the girl.

I was already angry at this time but my husband continued to the BEST part. This friend started to ask this evil ‘shit’ why he do what he did. His reply is such a snap of ‘So What.” And ‘BAM’ one shot on the face with bleeding nose and shattered dignity.

That is good. I was relief…God is Good! ..creating such righteous human being. He was never perfect but what he did is a cry for people who believe in judgment.

Then, my husband continues his story from good…to better. Their other neighbor is a soldier and when the news spread out, another kick on the abdomen and the ‘shithead’ passed out…Boy!i Love Good Stories!!!

Well the aftermath is the shithead stays 5 Free complimentary nights at the police station with another promise from the police that he would get some kind of ‘lesson’ during his time at the lockup.

But to me, the significant part of the story is the cooperation among the neighborhood, the compassion for each other adversity through different races and religion in a simple and average-wage apartment tenants.

The trust, the care and the courage to stand up for Truth and Justice.

don’t you just love Happy Ending?...i do.

Formula to Excellence...(sounds good to be true?....oh its good!) Episod 1

as simple as...

Tell yourself this every morning,or during break time, or before an important event or anytime needed.

1) How do you feel? = Wonderful!

2) Where are you? =  Here

3) What time is it? = Now!

Let me know if it works!

...and why do we agree to fall into anger regardless how distressing it was.

...maybe they have good memory of that person...and perhaps...just perhaps they don't know him anymore...as per today this very day whereby days and years have changed and turns himself of yesterday to be simply a vivid yet distant memory of yesteryears...but i know him from a different angle when i saw a different part of him where darkness creeps and emotion running high when a mistake can never undone and leave a memory of undisclosed tragedy.

We all may related to one reason, Anger ; undeniably gives us a sense of relief and satisfaction. To no doubt, relief and satisfaction is a good thing, is a sort of accomplishment to a project. And yet, it connects us to Anger. It become a bridge between our freedom of relief to the negative energy of Anger. Needless to say how disastrous the result of Anger can do to a human towards his social level and to his own character.

So why do we need relief and satisfaction at the first place? Why do we lead and chart our path to go to that direction whereby we need to get angry to release and gives freedom to our emotion needs. 

Lets go back to the time when we put ourself in a position why we need to felt some kind of Relief. The very reason why we get relieved from something is that when we felt that we are being suppressed by a distant power that we know or at least felt have no power to change or to alter the situation. Say like when we were talking to someone who we dislike or more like 'hate', and why do we hate them? They did something to us, they hurt our feelings, they talk behind our back or worst they took something extremely valuable from us. When we encounter such individuals; and to maintain a professional based relationship we ought to speak in a polite manner with very little emotion involve. However, it is to no deny that a sense of restriction is overpowering us deep within. And this is when the need to a release comes into our senses. The same principle also goes to the stress of work whereby you are 'Paid' to achieve an expected result and this caused our creative mind or feeling bound and tied up deep inside in regards to our need to be in a vacation or to be with our loved ones. The fact that we are sitting and trying accomplish a result for someone else benefit, is to no denial is never the good timing of our life. Therefore we need to let go.

We then get angry and we are satisfied when all the negative flow of restriction in our heart and mind has been released by the power of Anger. But how can we resist a sort of satisfaction anytime possible?. It is a good thing it may even promotes a sense of positivity as it feels good, a kind of feeling of bad,evil sentiment slowly released through our veins and muscles(at least by theory), how can we resist such chances?

Somehow where do we go from there?,to someone who notice and Anger is nothing but a culprit that will jeopardize their reputation they will want to figure out why and how one could trapped their own self to a situation of restriction until Anger bursting seems to be the right solution.

A person will only feel free from any restriction if their hearts lies a technique of 'Forgiving'. A sense of forgiveness will surely release a person from any situation that requires them to suppressed their high emotion on hatred,stressed and even bitterness. Literally it may seems easier to relate however it is easier said than done.

Forgiveness comes from pure willingness to let the other party win and challenge our kindness,integrity and patient. In this era a lot of people would go to great lengths to put their point across. To give in is to dismiss a challenge. Yet, it is either we choose forgiveness before anger sets in an becoming apart of us.

Though I lay you the facts on how a person can fall in to Anger, I could not yet illustrate via observation,from reading absorption and from wits ends deep inside to the subject of Forgiveness.

well..Happy reflection folks may you'll be inspired and discovered the true meaning of Forgiveness.

broadband

im gonna say my wishes here and i believe that someday it will come true, which i got this feeling it has a big chance to come true.

I have applied for government servant job...yes yes,i wanna be skivvy to the annoying politicians of this country. Yet, even if i work for PVT LMD...i am still an ever ending skivvy.

I wanna have my own broadband. So i can update me blog everytime.

I wanna celebrate a fiesta this year.

I wanna repair the house floor if possible create an arch for the kitchen section.

I wanna go for the Annual cultural fest and the annual dinner held at those 5 * hotel.

and im going to make that annual vacation in October come true.

Oh yeah~ 

so-called 3 days in a row Public Holiday

i am very much indeed in a holiday mood. Although i planed to work and leisure at the same time it has only been a 'plan' indeed.

Took my kids to my work place and hope that i could finish my marketing work by the coming Wednesday, yet not even a single work has been done. I spent the first day cleaning my house, do laundry and packing for our so-called 2 nights getaway. The rest of the afternoon went by pretty hasty when i rumble into a supermarket looking into a valentine's day present for my husband. I manage to get a brown colored wallet with a 70% discount...not bad, he got me a new scarf not exactly my favorite but at least he meant well, (i hoped that he would'nt mind a 'brown' wallet too)

My kids ran havoc since their arrival up till the second night and i am so bushed. I repeatedly feel sorry for myself for not having a real restful holidays but what the heck, i should've known that i have signed for this the moment the pregnancy tester kit shows positive.

My concern are the guest next to our room would'nt mind...(which i honestly think not exactly a smart thought)My daughter cried about 3 times on the first night but only one room next to us is vacant and she did'nt really do her best 'high-pitch' voice. But, the second night, both room next to us are occupied and she cried 3 times also and this time at 12 midnight and yeap her voice level reach 4 on a scale 1 to 5. I Am Overwhelmed for the last 2 nights...and i don't know whose to blame.On the second night i felt quite bad and while rocking my baby daughter on my chest i kept saying "what have i ever done to you"...my son look up to me and i hope it's emphaty that im looking in his eyes...he slowly drowse back to sleep and i slowly stop feeling that bad.

The third time my daughter cried is at almost 5AM, i doubt that both room next to us did had a good night sleep and i falterly comfort myself that none of the guest at the same level with our room lodge a complaint towards my baby cries...wish me peace....

Early the next morning,i woke my husband, dress my children and took them for a walk as they can be fancily energetic in the morning.We had a our breakfast at my favourite restaurant and my kids poop in their pants and we had to hurried back to clean them so we had to cancel our plan to stroll down the waterfront.

But before we went back we had a sit and chat with my husband about our valentine gifts while our kids were watching the half-functioning water fountain and i thought that is the most rewarding 30 minutes since the last 48 hours of my life :)

Today is the 16th the last day of the 3 days holiday...i planed to go home,sleep and eat and sleep some more..LOL!as if that gonna happen.

So i guess we might go out today and find a new pair of shoes for my daughter, since her current shoes just got a hole on her big toes as a result of our hiking all the way to the plaza and waterfront yesterday's evening. (as apart of my plan to make them so tired and simply fell into bed without hassle...that did'nt really work out right...Haha!)

Well i guess, i could start by giving my kids a shower..that is as soon as one of them awake from their morning nap...and its only 1030AM...i ...just....could'nt love my life any better!

LIFE;They just don't always happen at our own desired timing and circumstances BUT, i can still choose and create, so if my son's still sleeping,i will then enjoy the 'Charlie and the Chocolate Factory' movie!...for the second time in the row as yesterday's morning....see i could'nt love my life any better!

that's me on the swing

i like working, i seriously do! especially when you get a pat on the back that says you've done a good job!Altough the pay does not increase (and don't make me start on that one)yet it does honestly give you some sort of satisfation.

looking back at my work for the last 2 weeks i did well,there is no pending issues and i manage to come up with reason that failed to create feedback from the opposite direction, i always like that.

Makes me love my life, despite that sickening conflict between me and my husband and yet it has been water under the bridge anyhow...and darn i hate fighting nowadays...drains up my energy and scratch my reputation.

I guess life is simple when you are stupid or ignorant and life is fair when you are kind and life's sucks if you are me....at least that's what i thought, i can go on and on how unfair life has treated me and the fact never change.

I remain helpless,aggresive,hopeful,idle and negative. I plan and i actually learn how to be the contrary that is resourceful,tactful,oppurtunistic,industrious and positive.(Motivation always sounds good especially when you are not being productive hehe!)

Well i had my fun of pat in the back and i guess it's time to tumble into resposbilities again with a dash of confidence that i could nail it over and over again just like previously and will end up where i plan to be that is at the top of myself as i know that the best and worthwhile race or battle is between you and your ownself. Competing time, achievement,error and praises. The worst enemy is your ownself and the bestfriend you could ever have. Your saviour and your Hero...yes that is you. yourself.

So, im gonna roll my dice, place my card and ready for another game of life ; arguments with my husband, humiliation at work,discontention with friends and practical jokes with my kids, a job well done, appreciated by my peers.

Trully this is the life i always wanted. I thank GOD for i always get what i wanted and nailed those challenges Big time :). Always think as a winner as our attitude reflect our habit of thoughts and so our thoughts reflect our character.

I love God,love my wonderful kids,love my friends,i don't love my husband today...just not today but tomorrow i will :).

February weekends

had a great weekend, 4 of us went to 'car wash' and very much hang out at the waiting area for the rest of our time there. My daughter had some taste of the dirt when she fell face down onto the ground and my son had an experience of hanging on a tree. I had my fun and i bet my kids did too. Earlier i watched 'Twilight-New Moon' and im sorry but it is sucks. Bella got phobia on getting old and Edward fell bad about Bella being sad on that reality and decided to went away...BOO!.the whole thing happen because Bella got scared of growing old hairs and some wrinkles,and the stupid vampire encourage her emotion and on the way they both created confusion and miscellaneous error...pointless and worst in the end..of course they get back together again,Duh!..was my bad,how did i end up traped in a teenage movie dilema.

Yea,that car wash trip surely worth it and we had nice dinner of cucumber and 'sambal belacan'...nice!

Next week i was hoping to make a getaway to the beach or maybe to the waterfall!Gotta stay ahead and finish my work so that no clutters hanging over my head and i could bring my heart with me :)

Quotes; the summation of thoughts

~Significance ; Here i come!

~Nobody's Perfect!

~Commitment is such a scary thing...but when you have it, you won't turn back on anything

~we act ourselves into feeling not feeling ourselves into action

~in life, there's no real security-only oppurtunity

~I believe in Kindness!God is Good!I love God!

~I deserve my Happiness,i Paid for it...when i quit my job...never mind,i will continue being smart anyway.

~yg baik itu dari Allah,yg buruk itu dari saya sendiri

~how to get along with people : tell them what they want to hear...to a rockstar you curse.to a goody person you bless them...LOL!...which i always fail to commit.

~self esteem = is the degree of how much you love your ownself...regardless of your own ugliness and charm :)

~ppl who cannot avoid minor dissapoinments...may looks fragile yet these ppl are the ones that can avoid major dissapointments = ppl who can avoid minor dissapointments may ended up in major dissapointments...to be short be willing to hurt a little here and there or you may be hurt deeper and in longer run.

~time is precious and best spent with your loved ones

~marital manifesto 2010 : dear husband, i would'nt care wherever you bring me for vacation this year as long as you bring your heart with you...(oh and the remember to throw the rubbish everytime we leave the house please...)

~its not about how happy you are, its about doing the right thing; that is being Happy!

~you only given ONE life,whatchoo gonna do with it?

~I'm not the greatest; I'm the double greatest. Not only do I knock 'em out, I pick the round. -Muhammad Ali- ~

~di mulakan dgn bismillah di sudahi dgn alhamdullilah bgt la sehari dlm hidup kita mudah2an di rahmati Allah-Raihan-

~Ingat lima perkara, sebelum lima perkara ,Sihat sebelum sakit,Muda sebelum tua, kaya sebelum miskin ,Lapang sebelum sempit ,Hidup sebelum mati-Raihan-

~nothing is too late for anything good

~slandering has a rebounce effect ; if you dont want people to slander you behind your back, try to talk about other ppl as little as you can behind their back...like the words of the wise ; if you have nothing nice to say ; shut up.

~believe it or not ; being selfless is a great motivator to have a fulfilled life.(stops us from being vain of our own self/thinking for the benefit of others blocks us from seeing all our own disatisfaction)...hard...but true...LOL!gud luck trying :)

~clutters = scatterbrain...be gone be gone

~If people are stupid,its not your fault;so don't feel bad

~i found that reflection is the best part of motivation ; each time others commit a mistake, ask yourself 'what about me?am i like that?'you'll soon to realize your own level of decency...and you no longer feel bad towards them let alone about your ownself.

~work with your heart,passion and talent at its best and you'll never live in vain.As human,when we are insecure of how good we are we will precedes into our excellence and still not knowing about how well we've done...And that is the essence of 'The Flow' ; The neurobiology of Excellence.

~sharing ; flamboyant as it may be...it is Love.

~Most people are other people. Their thoughts are someone else's opinions, their lives a mimicry, their passions a quotation.” ~ Oscar Wilde

~As parents, our children is like a mirror ; they reflect on how we treat others...literally.

~ever wonder when you do your 'business' in the toilet your tears flows through your eyes?..it is actually triggered by our subconscious mind wherby it commit an action and sense of release similiar to a an emotional trauma through sadness and grievance.We cry to let go of negative emotion and therefore when our body release 'toxic's from our body our body system automatically release 'fake' tears as a results of absolution...(im juz being funny,read that somewhere in a book or sumthing)

~Whatever u give a woman, she will make it greater. Give her sperm, she will give u a baby. Give her a house, she will give u a home. Give her groceries, she will give u a meal. Give her a smile n she will give u her heart. She multiplies and enlarges what she is given. So if u give her crap, be ready to receive a ...to...n o.........f shit...


~Positive Thinking ; Too large for worry,too noble for anger,too strong for fear and too happy to permit the presence of trouble


~the world does not revolve around you ; You revolve around the world. So spare the world your vanity.


~perhaps some reason why people are unhappy is because they don't know WHAT makes them happy


~and when it comes to decision-making,she became the knights of the shining armour and he's the damsel in distress.


~for some ppl marriage is the 'leap of their life' ; the biggest risk they ever take and for some ppl marriage is just one of the various path in life they gotta taste...and there my friends you could see the obvious diffrence between man and woman towards their selection of decision


~to learn to forgive others; one must learn 'what' is love and compassion first.Forgiveness is the highest degree of Love and compassion...


~when life gives you a lemon...make lemonades out of it...(and please don't just squirt it to others eyes...)...boy i love that quote!


~Im blind + you're deaf = Happiness in Marriage


~i don't worry about my circumstances...i create them <-- Law of Attraction simplified. -Anonymous-


~Excellent Customer Service is how well you grant your own Self -Esteem....its that easy!When you feel good others feel good too!


~"What other people think of you is none of your business"...<- now that's Positive Thinking and purely high Self-Esteem.


~your job does not cost you your life...so no speeding while driving...regardless if its monday or flooded or you already late...:)


~people who always complaint things,slander others and frequently agitated although how well they justified themselves is in truth and deeply having a bigger attitude problem within their own selves.


~im not rich(i probably never will)....im not poor(has never been my goal)........im just HAPPY!


~in every adversity, it is actually a BLESSING in disguise


~"don't blame me, the road ahead is so straight till i don't realize im not making any progress"...hence my friends be thankful if you have a twisted road ahead, for you never know,each turning point might be your next BIG thing!...so many twist and turns?!...wow imagine how much BIG things you could get!!!


~“Anyone can become angry - that is easy. But to be angry with the right person, to the right degree, at the right time, for the right purpose and in the right way - this is not easy.”-Aristotle-


~problem gives you insights and perspective,therefore be thankful if you get loads of 'em as you will get abundance of insights and perspectives.


~procrastination and complaining has the same function...they make your life even worst


~gotta be thankful regardless of any circumstances in your life even if it seems to be a disadvantages, because if we try to avoid it in any way especially in a demeaning manner, it will always catches up with us again and worst in an even more demeaning event. What happened to you is for a reason. Try to dodge will only caused more complications.


~stick and stones may hurt my bones(but not words...not words)


~during negative thinking infestation...even your logic side of brain will cheat on you.


~you can 'buy' happiness,you actually pay for it..but it only applies to one particular currency called : Time


~Happiness is not just feeling, but also a sentiment ; applied into one's mind will enhance emotion though not necessarily material but nevertheless promote joyfulness in one's heart and soul and that will produce a smile on one's face regardless how poor or disappointed a person can be.

~with the right Mind, the right Tool and the right TIME...anything is possible!

~ its the energy that you radiates that will dramatized your surrounding

~don't get confuse between happiness and sorrow, if he can offer you happiness don't consider him as apart of your sorrow, if they give you sorrow don't expect them to offer you happiness

~heart is the core...

~jangan kau takut kerana susah...jangan kau menangis kerana perit...jangan kau tewas ketika diduga...:)

~a person who can have Extreme Anger is also the person who can have Powerful Resilience..Joan of Arc, Braveheart ok...you may say that's a myth and legends, but try to google into Ted Bundy, Jeffrey Dahmer and Richard Ramirez. They have endured long and painful court trials,life imprisonment until of course they were killed or punished...and for some their resilience last.

~anger is like standing on one feet, if you do not have good control of yourself...you will fall

~in a relationship : Women fell in love with their ears. Men fell in love with their eyes

~man...the hardest part of motherhood is when your kids regard feeding time as 'torture'...so i probably need a nanny specialized in Feeding...hmm..that's a thought :)